- 22nd December- Jenna
- So I'm breaking the habit tonight -
I danced through our house, singing to myself, just being me without thinking of how I was acting. I've never been different. Life's too short to be how other people want me to be.
I once stopped in front of Zero's room. He was in there for days, just leaving for school and to eat something, kind of that stuff. One week has passed since Ju said him to never show up at her place and he really looked bad. Mum just said: "It'll pass soon." Sometimes I don't know what she's thinking, what said her to not try helping him.
I knocked once. Twice. Three times. He never answered, all I could hear was his way to loudly music. I opened the door to find him lying onto his bed, saying nothing. I missed him. He usually is very easy-going, nice to be with and so on. Now he's just ... not here.
"Hey there? Zero?", I tried to be louder than the music. Not a chance! I waited a minute until he became aware of me and turned the music more quit.
"What is it?", he said monotonous.
"I'm worried about you! ... Everybody's telling me 'He'll be okay.' but I won't be talked into it!"-
"Shut up, Jenn! You don't know anything..."
"Excuse me? I'm your sister! Even Matthew is wondering what's up with you..."
"You know, this is none of you're business?" He stared at me, much like a wild animal, mad at his enemy.
"I know but... I know you still love her ... you gave up trying to talk to her, though. Did you think about why she's acting like this? This is something a girl never does without reason. And all you're doing is lying here, waiting for life to go on..."
He stared right through me, now acting as if I was already gone. I left him alone.
Down in the kitchen I started to cook anything. I was just hungry. Mum seemed to be in the living room, talking to somebody. I looked at one of our telephones, checking. She was having a chat with one of her friends or something.
Without thinking I listened to what she was saying:
"No, don't come over today. He's still not over that girl. A few more days and he'll regret to have broke up your relationship and come back to you. No worries... Was a good idea to have used that stuff to make her faint so that we could get rid of her that day. I think it was right. She had to feel what being alone feels like....You're such a nice girl, Scarlette...."
"No..." I whispered to myself, "she won't do something...something like that, would she...?"
I went out of the kitchen in disbelief, grabbing my jacket and the car key of Zero's Aston Martin. I couldn't believe this.
Zero told me about Ju. He always tells me what's going on in his life and so do I. Everything seems to be as perfect as it never was. Just because his girlfriends not as rich or something as we are? Scarlette was a bitch. A damn little girl who just plays around. How to prefer somebody like that to somebody who's not just thinking about herself? That kind of love was what you call a "material love" . . . in her case she was the material. Cold-hearted, arrogantly, . . . I hope she'll leave Zero alone soon. She's just upset because he never fell on his knees in front of her to adore her.
Whatever. . . .I stopped at the Sturbuckswhere she was working, or at least I was hoping it was this specific Shop. New York has millions of Starbucks. This one has to be the right, though. I don't want to search for hours... Who knows if Scarlette will come over today?
Inside I asked for Judith Tyrell. A friendly woman told me where she was living so I just ordered an coffee and said thanks. I drove away, right to the address I was told to find her.
In front of her house I looked around... the city estate wasn't the most beautiful one but the people on the street don't looked like criminals and that was a good sign.
I searched for the bell with the name "Tyrell" on it. There it was.
"I may have told Zero first? No, he wouldn't possibly believe me. This was the only way to get any further. I rang the bell. A minute later Ju asked through the switchboard: "Yes?"
"It's me. Jenna. I ..." I sighed. "Come up." The door opened and I went up the stairs.
"So... what is it?", Judith asked me while we were sitting in her kitchen with a hot chocolate.
She looked like the last time I've seen her, only know there was no brilliancy in her eyes, they were just faint. "I need to explain something to you. About your latest relationship to Zero
-Please don't interrupt! ... I finally know what has happened so you broke up. You don't know what he is currently like. This isn't my brother any longer. He's not bad looking is he? No, he isn't. That's possibly what you've thought yourself when you saw him in the Central Park when you met him. That's what many girls think.
So you saw him on a bench, kissing another girl?-That was Veronica, a friend of Scarlette's. Yes, you already know Scarlette. I know Veronica myself because she's in my class. She adores him. After Zero was off with my dad he wanted to see you. I can't think of another reason for him to be in the Park. Veronica was possibly crying so he wanted to be there for her. And, as obsessed as she is, kissed him. I hope this wasn't a plan of Scarlette's, too. It worked anyway. You saw him and afterwards you won't talk to him again...
Nobody's perfect and so is he. He broke up lately with Scarlette, and that was a mistake. He wanted to know first if you'd like to spend time with you, too. After that one day he was here, he told her goodbye. Too late, though. There already was more than just a little teenage romance between you two. That's why she was so upset. Because he loves you! For her you're nothing..." When I looked at her she wanted me to just go on. "I want to know everything!" She said it very ... not-lovingly.
I continued anyway: "The talk was just their show. Bad son- good mum. You still don't know why you've fainted? Morphine. They brought you to that dark road. You were lucky to not have ran into some idiots. You're not bad lookin' and they're criminals everywhere... Who knows what they would have done to you. Cruel that my mum would have been excited about something like that. She's not that bad...usually. Please don't think of her as a sadistic criminal..."
I wiped away a tear out of the corner of my eye. I felt so sorry. Judith stood up and gave me a huge hug. She smiled sadly. "It's okay... I'm not upset or something. Don't worry."
"Thank you... I think that's all. I wanted you to know the truth."
Judith sat down again, asking: "So...what you're saying is he still is in love with me?"
"Yes.", I thought of him, sitting in his room, depressed.
"... He was here for a few times. Afterwards, I mean. I told him to go away... I thought when I'm just a number on his list he won't care. He stopped trying to talk to me after a few days. That was my reassurance that I was right...", she whispered, feeling miserable, too.
"It was because he loves you. He never knew what has happened. He don't know yet. I do because I heard mum talking to Scarlette on the phone today."
Judith breathed out loudly but than... screamed, smiled, danced around. I really thought she was having a shock or something!
But then she smiled happily, telling me: "So what you're saying is, there's still a small chance he'd like to see me again? Oh, Jenna!" She gave me a hug.
"So... want to come over? Now?", I invited her. "Of course. I don't know if I'm welcome but I don't mind!"
Her eyes shimmered in the twilight when we jumped into Zero's car and drove off.
In front of the house I saw another parked car. Scarlettes. "... that bitch.", I whispered.
Jenna's face turned white know that she knew who was to blame for his and her own pain. Who's fault it was. "I hope we're not too late.", I thought, scared of saying it out loudly.
I opened the door and the both of us ran up the stairs.
In front of his door we stopped. I heard his voice coming from beyond the door. And her voice, too: "You're feeling miserable? Want me to take care of you? ... I missed you, honey."
Judith took a deep breath and opened the door quickly: "Scarlette, first cause all the trouble and then acting like you feel sorry? ... Ah! Just be quit! You piss me off.-By the way, hi Zero."
Smiling I entered the room, too. "Ah Scarlette. You didn't know I heard you talking to my mum? I feel so sorry. You naughty, naughty girl!" I gave Ju a kiss on her cheek because I felt so wonderful.
Zero just wondered. Scarlette was shocked and left us alone, crying. No mercy for someone like her, that's what the both of us were possibly thinking.
"I'll leave you alone...?", I asked happily. I went out of the room and closed the door. They need some privacy, I thought.
- 22nd December- Zero
- So let mercy call and wash away....what I've done -
I was tangled up since Scarlette entered my room. Now I'm even more, because Ju did. She looked great...as always. She's wearing a cap, sloped down to her face, a black jeans which goes with green jacket.
I... was simply speechless. Why was all this happening? I mean...first days of loneliness, feeling miserable and now everybody's coming in whenever he wants to?
Scarlette was just telling me how much she misses me and that she still was in love with me, before she tried to kiss me.
Just in time, if you want to say it this way, Jenna and Judith joined us. I was lucky, wasn't I? Who knows what Scarlette would have tried to do with me afterwards. I won't have given in but...
"Ju...", I whispered, "You here?"
She sat down on the floor, right where she was just standing.
"Why? ... Maybe because your latest girlfriend tried to pull me away from me, without mercy. She would have been right if I have died alone out there. Or maybe, because you're mum supported her. Or just because I love you and did not want Scarlette to win this 'fight'?"
She winced when she mentioned Scarlette and my mum. "What has happened...to you?"
She told me. Everything. At the end, she was nearly crying.
"All this has caused so much pain for you... " I stood up and sat down next to her. "And I'm sorry that ... I broke up too late with her..."
She leaned against me, telling me: "No, that's okay. I knew, a boy like you always has a girlfriend. I wondered anyway why you had none. Now I know better..."
"... Ju, I still love you. You already told me you don't want to see me again, but know that you're sitting here..." Her heart was pounding loudly against her chest when she listened to my words. I can feel it.
"That was... because I saw you together with that Victoria-person. Jenna already told me what must has happened... I know you never wanted to hurt me. You wouldn't. You already know you're all I need, want and have got so...as I said. I'm here because I love you."
I gave her a kiss on the cheek, happy once again.
"...thanks.", she whispered into my ear.
"Thanks? For what?"- "That you're still mine."
- 23rd December- Judith
- Tell me why, every time, I feel your eyes all over me -
To forgive isn't always easy, but most of all reasonable. I could not live right beside Zero if I would have to fight against his mother all the time. That's why Jenna talked to her as soon as she left me in his room. When I went home in the evening she came to give me a hug, saying she's sorry. I don't know if she was honest with me but... I felt welcomed, at least a little bit now.
"Thank you." I said, waving good-bye to catch up with Zero, who was waiting outside to drive me home. . .
I'm lucky to already have bought christmas presents for Rachel, Eve and even Sulky. I still have none for Zero, though. I don't know what he'd like to have. I mean, I hardly know him a month, but it feels like I've known him all life. . .
I think I won't ask him. That's just wrong. I'm going to search all day if I have to. I took my cell phone, some money and went to Rachel.
When she opened the door she wasn't dressed yet. "What are you doing here? You could have called me! Look at me!" She pointed at her lovely nightgown. "Sorry, I really need your help."
"Christmas present, huh?", she grinned, "I already wondered when you'd come to ask us for help..."
I went inside and called Eve. She was as sleepy as Rachel was: "What's up...?"
I told here to be here in about an hour, and after some whining, she said yes. Usually she needs about two hours but today she really was here in time. "Hate you!", she welcomed me with a hard hug. "Love you, too."
Rachel came out of her bathroom, ready to go.
"What to donate anyway?" If the two of them could help me anyway?
"It has to be..."- "Sexy! Absolutely sexy!" ... I sighed. "Girls, please!"
We searched for two hours... or three? Don't ask me.
Result: No present. At least Rachel and Eve found some presents for their family...
"... this is horrible!", I whined. Just then my cell phone rang.
"Hey, honey!", Zero's lovely voice greeted me. My heart jumped once.
"Oh hey, what's up?", I turned about so I won't have to face my two friends grinning widely.
"Nothing. Just wondering what you're doing...You weren't at home."
"I'm at Rachel's with Eve.", I told him. He don't have to know that I'm this late...
"Ehm ... Ju?", Rachel whispered from behind. I ignored her, whatever it is this time, it has to wait a minute or two.
"Ah ... okay. Then... tell me please, since when is Rachel living at a shopping mall?", he whispered in my ear, kissing me from behind. Speechless I faced him, blushed.
"... An hour or two? Ask Rachel herself...What are you doing here anyway?"
He looked in my eyes so I would feel like melting under his gaze, but I stayed where I was, looking back. "I'm searching for something.", he said, being honest about that.
"When you say 'something' you mean...?"
"The same thing you're searching for, what else?" His answer came quickly with a warm smile.
"... And? Already found something?" I was curious about that since I stood up to find something for him. I was having a hard time, if he was having one, too?
"Of course!", he grinned, "Just searching for another small present."
"Another one? Zero... You know I can't overwhelm you with presents the way you possibly can, so please..." He just kissed me and then said: "See you later! I'll be at your place at 7.30, okay?"
"Okay." Rachel and Eve smiled telling me to go on searching, but I already knew we won't find anything.
At the end of the day I had no present but a bad conscience. I already bought a red rose and I would write a letter to tell him about how much I love him and what I felt during the time we were separated from each other. . .
- 24th December- Judith
- I'm searching for my words inside my head. I'm feeling nervous, trying to be so perfect, cause I know you're worth it -
My pen was moving across the paper, I couldn't really control it. The words, coming from somewhere deep in my heart just flew. The thoughts in my head made me dizzy, remembering what has happened since that one morning I woke up, feeling enthusiastic about December. It felt like a dream to me since then. Sometimes it was only a dream, feeling like I could fly, but then it was a nightmare, being alone.
Dear Zero . . .
Love's a mysterious thing to deal with, isn't it? Once you've fallen in love you never want to lose the one you're sharing your life with at that time. . .
We met down there in the Central Park and you said goodbye even before you said hello.
You knew how to make me want you and . . . as you can see, it worked out just right...
. . . .
The difference is what makes our relationship special, huh?
I thought about that when I thought to have lost you. You're perfect, I already know that. Maybe that was the reason for your mother to hate me. I wasn't good enough for you. I mean it's not like I don't know. . . I have to work hard to pay the bills and so on, but that's how I live since I don't know when. I'm glad to have met you, and I was even more glad because you never cared about things like that. . . . . .
I searched for a perfect present to give you for Christmas but never found one. There's nothing I can give to you but my love and this letter which has to serve as proof.
Zero, I want you to know how much I love you but. . . I realized I just can't. Words won't be enough . . . . . .
I wrote about three pages until I thought that I finally said everything I wanted to. I folded the letter and put it into the envelope. The rose was bound to the envelope. Finally I wrote his name down in my most beautiful handwriting. It wasn't much, but it's the thought that counts, right?
I wondered if I should visit him or if he was going to show up here. We haven't talked about that yesterday. He told me what he would give to Jenna, Matthew and his parents and I told about Rachel, Eve and Sulky...
Where was Sulky anyway? It's way to quite around here. I just finished wrapping up presents...
"Sulky? Honey! C'mon!", I yelled, searching for my dog, the devil herself. I found her in the kitchen, trying to reach the presents. "No, not this time. Last year was me a lesson. I'm finally done with everything, let's get outta here." I laid down the envelope next to the other presents and was about to go to the Central Park with my dog, but just in time the door rang. Sulky watched first the presents, then me. I took her with me, opening the door. Facing... nobody.
"Great..." I was about to close the door when I heard someone I never thought of meeting again at my place. Jenna. "Wait! Give me a sec!", she yelled. I could hear her coming up the stairs. "Damn him,..."
"I'll leave the door open, Jenn?" I went inside again, caressing Sulky. Eventually Jenna came in, carrying dresses, shoes, and so much more.
"What are you DOING?", I gasped. Jenna went into my bedroom, letting the stuff fall on my bed.
"... You're better not asking.", she smiled. "But you have a date tonight, and I want you to look incredibly beautiful. More than you already do!"
I stood in my hallway, totally startled. "What about asking me first before showing up here with all that? Nobody told me I would have a date tonight..."
"What else? But first of all..." She walked over to me, giving me a kiss on my cheek, "Merry Christmas!" I hugged her. "Same goes to you! Hey, you'd like to have breakfast?", I went to the kitchen, not even awaiting her answer to be 'no'. "Coffee or tea?"
Sulky, who was on her own feet again, came in after Jenna. She was nearly dancing around that girl, totally curious.
"Aww, how is her name, again? She's just so cuuuutet! . . . Ah, and Tea, please."
Cuddling, they sat on the floor.
"It's Sulky.", I answered her question, looking forward to my most beloved Christmas eve.
"What is he planning to do?" A red, silky dress with a low neckline on my skin, I looked at myself in the mirror.
"You'll see. What do you think about that one?", Jenna's eyed me sceptically until her eyes gave her away. "You look adoringly!... and damn sexy! Better watch out tonight."
I blushed, trying to slap her. Jenna was faster, already resorting out of my bedroom.
The dressed made it difficult to get after her, so I finally gave up, starting to laugh out loudly.
"We're crazy, aren't we?", Jenna's voice came from the kitchen. "No, the other people out there are just too normal!"
A few hours later I looked like a model. My hair found his way down my neck, in wavy curls. My eyes glittered in a beautiful red-grey look, the red going just right with the colour of the lipstick which was brown with some red tied in. Jenna's pride of what she had done was noticeable on the first look...
- 24th December- Zero
- All I want for Christmas is you! -
I never saw a girl like her, the way she moved on the dance floor. So graceful. . .
Her dress made it even worse to look away from her. . .
And now, after the dinner and a dance I was about to lead her outside, right into the cold night until we stood in front of the Christmas tree at the Rockefeller Center. My arm around her, I looked down at her, hearing her every breath, looking at the soft clouds. She turned slowly, entwining my neck, whispering: "Thanks for everything, I never had a Christmas eve like that..."
A smile made its way over my lips: "And you don't even got all your presents."
That caught her off guard: "You can't be serious about that, can you? I mean, I already had a great night, you're with me. I don't want to have anything else. My present is nothing in contrast to that."
I kissed her softly, pulling her closer to me. Afterwards I looked into her deep eyes, telling her what she was going to face the next weeks during the holidays: "What do you think about Paris?"- "...this is a dream."
Her eyes searched for a joke about traveling to France, already knowing that I was telling her nothing but the truth. "You'll like it. I know you will."
Her eyes glittered in the dim light. "Thanks, once again. I feel terrible because my present is nothing but this."
A red envelope was in my hands now and after opening I found the sweetest letter I should ever get in it. "This is just as great. Words out of her heart written down just for me.", he winked, "they're remain in my mind."
I touched her neck, pulling her closer when my fingers made its way down on her back...
"The chain looks beautiful on you." It was another present I found in the mall. A silver heart with a little diamond tied in.
"I feel almost like a star between all those presents."-
"The holidays are from my mum, a present for both of us."
Her voice sounded unsteady now, she was about to cry, hopefully out of happiness: "Yo...your mum? But...she hates me?"
"No, she was just worried. Welcome to our family, Judith."
It felt like this moment in particular was just for the two of us when we kissed each other never caring about the coldness all around us.
"Thanks, Zero. I love you."
"I'll love you forever, sweetheart.", I said, turning with her toward the big tree. . . .
"Ah and, Jenna will go shopping with you." I had to admit after a while.
"Oh my. . . ." Who knows how many new wardrobes we would need this time. . .
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It is also a good idea to show to us the history through the glance of the various characters. And it is not serious if this tale of Christmas is finished in Mars!
Bravo !!
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And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music ♥
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And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music ♥
=RawEm0tion - Curious?
wish u that this happens in reality some time soon
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Every girl needs a man she can go to in her sweats, hair a mess, make-up running down her face, eyes red from crying and the first thing he says is "Baby, you're beautiful!" and means it!
One's still allowed to dream......
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And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music ♥
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